Wednesday, June 26, 2019

More Than Coffee

Waking up is always a bit of a surprise to me. I never know from one day to the next whether it's going to be a good day or a bad day.

Most people don't think very hard about breathing. But for me it's a constant thought. I'm always hyper aware of every breath I take.



From 5:30 am o 7:30 am, I feel like I've run a marathon.  Upon rising each morning, most of the time, I feel ok at first.  Walking to the bathroom to take my meds, I am hopeful and optimistic about the day ahead.  A short trip to the kitchen to brew the coffee begins my troubles for the day.

I start the coffee and walk back to my room to get back on my oxygen until the coffee is ready. I'll need that burst of oxygen to get back to the kitchen to pour the two cups that begin mine and my husband's day.  The oxygen goes back on for about 30 minutes while I drink my coffee.

Next, it's time to make his lunch.  Oxygen back off, I head to the kitchen once more and begin the task.  I can't take my oxygen with me because it's a stationery oxygen concentrator and not the portable kind.  My tubing doesn't reach to the kitchen. I'm working on getting longer tubing to help with that issue.

Halfway through making the second sandwich, I usually double over on the counter to catch my breath. That's when the pain begins.  As I'm gasping for air, I regain what little composure I can muster to get everything in his lunch bag and hang it on the doorknob of the front door. That's the easiest way for me to make sure he remembers to take it with him during his hurried morning ritual.

This seemingly small task has exhausted me. But it's the least  I can do for the man I love. After all, he goes off to work every day to provide for our needs. I love doing this for him when I'm able to.  It's usually the only time Ill be able to do much of anything at all, all day.

There are some days I can't do this at all. On those days, he has available to him some frozen personal pizzas that he takes to work.  Last week I had an exacerbation. He had pizza 4 days in a row.

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