Sunday, June 30, 2019

Love Yourself First

There was a time in my life that I can honestly say that I didn't love myself. I didn't even like myself. I can even say I hated myself. I hated everyone.... hated people in general.  "Persons" were nice but people, as a collective, people were confusing.

The Courage to Sit

Sometimes, when we aren't even looking for it, inspiration reaches up and grabs us by the heart. We stumble upon a person so full of light, that it feels as if their soul is shooting a beam of hope right into us.

Saturday, June 29, 2019

Coming Up For Air

Watch a movie in your mind with me.

Let's go to a place I hope you never experience in reality. We're going on a COPD Journey.


Lung Limbo

Sherie. She's my older sister. Four years older, to be exact. She's been my champion and shown me such unwavering love throughout my COPD Journey. We're two hours away from each other but there is no distance of the hearts where Sherie is concerned. She is the reason I have oxygen, right now.

Thursday, June 27, 2019

Finding Peace

     When I first learned how devastating this illness would be to me, I crumbled.  I practically gave up.  That's a raw part of the grieving process. Grieving for everything you can never do or have again.  Grieving for the lost "you".

     This isn't an easy disease. COPD often robs us of our energy, light, hope and of course, our breathe.

Wednesday, June 26, 2019

The Difference of a Year

What a difference a year makes.

On the left is me about a year ago.  I still had COPD of course.  But I still had many good days.  I could still go to the store at that point. Still walk around my yard.  Still shower without issues. Still play with my dogs.  Still cook. Still get the household chores done. I was even still running every day,  enjoying being outdoors in nature.

Poem: Each Breath

Most days are hard. I live them stongly.
Each breath takes work, but still, I breathe.
My hope, it fades. Some days just slay me.
Most days still find me on my knees.

But every day I keep on trying.
Every day I love this life.
More blessed than cursed, I keep on fighting.
I won't succumb to pain or strife.

More Than Coffee

Waking up is always a bit of a surprise to me. I never know from one day to the next whether it's going to be a good day or a bad day.

Most people don't think very hard about breathing. But for me it's a constant thought. I'm always hyper aware of every breath I take.

Bucket List

A bucket list is a list of goals or things you want to do.  Typically, it is for things you want to experience before you die. The term "Bucket List" is believed to get it's name from the phrase "Kick the  Bucket" which was thought to originated during the middle ages in England.

Views Like This

How can one regret any part of a life that provided views like this?  I have seen and visited a lot of places in my lifetime. At one point in my life I was very active.  Having COPD has changed that for me.